My heart was in my throat, but I did it! For the most part the visit went well. GF and I didn't get there til almost 8 p.m. and when we walked in all of our friends were there. I think H was surprised to see me, but everyone else was making such a fuss, giving me hugs and kisses, "where ya been?" etc that my focus was not on him. GF and put our purses down on an empty table behind were H was sitting and started to mingle. H turned to me and said there is an empty chair next to me, sit here. So I did, but I was up and moving around a lot too. It went well until the single friend that I suspect is rallying for our marriage demise came in. H was up and visiting a table of pretty young girls, he had been at that table when GF and I walked in. I noticed, but didn't say anything about it, and when H sat by me he went to great effort to remind me that the one girl was so & so's wife and they just had their drive paved, he was discussing that with her. I knew he was trying to make me feel comfortable, that he didn't want me to think he was "hitting" on women. Anyway, as the evening progressed, he went back to that table and was spending some time talking to the other single girl and our friends began to comment on it. My feelings were hurt, and tho I probably shouldn't have, I said something to him about it. He got mad, paid the tab and left. I stayed for another hour or so, then went home and slept in the den.
Things were silent for a while this morning, but we finally did discuss it. I was cool, calm and unemotional. He actually apologized for the fact that he is being "weird". Said he doesn't know what is the matter with him, that he is afraid that he has fallen out of love and that he won't be able to get the feelings back. I told him that love is a decision and that I thought he should try to be as positive as he could and that I believed it would come back. And in the mean time we should be respectful of each other and just ride this thing out. I told him that I didn't want to destroy our family and home or finances for something that may change around in 10 months. I told him that I was prepared to give him the space he needed, to work thru his feelings, if we could both agree to stay faithful to each other. He readily agreed, and was sincere.
So, I feel relieved. The first visit is over. I will go again, but not for at least a week or more. I really enjoyed seeing all of my friends.
I hope that your weekend goes well and that you get some good time with your family, W and children.
I am getting ready to go for a massage...my treat to myself. H is out golfing with a (happily married) buddy - yeah! I have to do my shopping and then run some errands. Hopefully we will all have a nice Saturuday night.
Take care and thanks for checking in on me. You are in my prayers.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
So I did, but I was up and moving around a lot too. It went well until the single friend that I suspect is rallying for our marriage demise came in. H was up and visiting a table of pretty young girls, he had been at that table when GF and I walked in. I noticed, but didn't say anything about it, and when H sat by me he went to great effort to remind me that the one girl was so & so's wife and they just had their drive paved, he was discussing that with her. I knew he was trying to make me feel comfortable, that he didn't want me to think he was "hitting" on women. Anyway, as the evening progressed, he went back to that table and was spending some time talking to the other single girl and our friends began to comment on it. My feelings were hurt, and tho I probably shouldn't have, I said something to him about it. He got mad, paid the tab and left. I stayed for another hour or so, then went home and slept in the den.
