One Day - you know I'm really bad at baby steps. I find it really tricky to think of what they would be and to be happy when they happen. I like giant leaps! Ha ha!! I guess a baby step is H actually turning up - anything after that is a bonus! It sure would be nice if we could laugh and have general chit chat - I know that I can control the mood, so I've got to work on that. It would also be nice if H didnt look too strained, and if at the end he said something like, he had a good time. Anything more is an expectation!
Several times now I feel like H & I have broken through that awkwardness and he is feeling comfortable being around me. But then the next time I see him he goes back to being all awkward, and so do I. To move this forward into stage 2 of friendship I think we really need to be connecting in a friendly way on a regular basis.
I guess a good way to do that is to mention things that we could do together, and give him the opportunity to contact me.
