What a novelty to be on the board the same time you guys are! Thanks for stopping by. When its your own situation you dont see things clearly - its good to have your perspective.
I guess the thing that could cause the night to go terribly is that H is a jerk, or really closed / tense, and that upset me. Absolutely no R talks and I know I have to change the subject if anything remotely R comes up. I'm also scared that if H says anything negative about getting a divorce or him being serious about another girl, it will be too much to handle.
You are so right Ali that I'm not detached. I think I go through phases of being detached, and then somehow I re-attach myself to H. I will re-read all the stuff about detaching that was helpful in the beginning.
I will be more surprised if H actually comes on Friday night and less surprised if he cancels or doesnt show.
But you guys are right I shouldnt be waiting for something bad to happen.... Can I say I'm expecting the worst but hoping for the best?
I had my hair cut and coloured today and have a very cute new dress with sexy boots to wear. Its cute and I feel really comfortable in it.... so that part is easy!
