Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

Thanks Kat. I see that it's on today. Not sure if I'll get a chance to watch it or not, but I'll try.

Last night was GREAT. Ok, not that great, no intimacy yet, but last night was the first night I let myself think we're going to make it. I'm doing my best to not get my hopes up too high, but with all the things that have been going on the last almost 3 weeks now, I'm feeling like we'll make it.

WW discussed with me finding a different job. She found an ad for a position which is more what she's done for years. When we relocated for my job our company found her a position that has the same "admin assist" job title as she's always had, but when she got her the job responsibilities are nothing like admin work (much more responsibility), which isn't a bad thing, but they aren't paying her for those increased responsibilities. Plus she HATES the type of work it is. She had mentioned a number of times looking for a new job after we'd been here a few months because she was so unhappy. I talked to her about how it would be best if she could stick it out until they found her another job because you just can't walk away from a good company, 28 years of service, 5 weeks vacation, great retirement plan, great 401K plan, etc. So she didn't pursue it.

Boy that was a mistake. I often wonder now if it was an attempt to get away from OM before anything happened? But she didn't and they did and now we're where we're at.

Anyway, she found an open position that will pay and give vacation based on experience so she's going to look into it. This could be GOOD. Get her away from the triggers of going to work where she met OM, get her away from a position she HATES, get her away from an office where OM may come back to in a couple years....

I was supportive of whatever she chooses to do. So we talked and talked and talked about all kinds of things. She still slept on the couch, but man was it a good night.

I know what you're all going to say.....don't get too high. And I'm trying not to. But it's hard not to go there. And this morning when I woke up, my anger was starting to show back up again....