Too late for DB, thread 7

[cw68]

No, no ADs because I don't think I'm depressed. Yes, I'm hitting a down spot in my life, but even as much as I don't like what's going on right now, I don't want to miss my life's emotions. I think of all the wonderfully productive, creative people who have turned negative emotions into art and I don't want to stifle those feelings. That said, I'm not an artist, but living life is something I need to feel. It's like when my sister was diagnosed with cancer the first time. Someone asked her if she ever asked, "Why me?" and her answer was, "No. Did I ever ask 'Why me?' when things were going well?" In as much as things really suck, it's life and I'm prepared to deal with. The downs and the highs will just contribute to my life experiences and will grow my soul.

With the adderall (Jeff, that's what I'm taking), I don't plan on taking it every day. The plan is to learn life skills (benefits of being an adult with ADD vs. child) to help me cope with my shortfalls and to use the adderall when I have big things going on for which I need to be focuses. I'm supposed to take it for three-four weeks to see how my body responses and then stop taking it for weekends. Then I'll only take it every other day and then only when I anticipate needing it. The times I'm on the medication, I can learn the skills and gain the habits that will allow me to best deal with this.