Pinch Me.........

[Lissie]

It's always darkest before the dawn - when one door closes another one opens............

These phrases make me pee. sigh. Not being disrespectful to you Bethie my sugar.

I know they are true.

I don' t know what the deal is with the muffin here.

I am reading, and I am trying to understand.

Understand? (cough)


I used to understand that when Ian, was feeling confused or blech. He used to plan, and strategize. You know all that work related stuff you do, that you bring to your everyday life.

What I am reading here now, is someone that is taking the easier route with things.

I think that it pays off in the short run. Sure we have all seen it here time and over again.

I think you yourself were the number one advise giver, when people were losing their focus.

I remember, b/c I use to swell up with pride, b/c my muffin was helping someone stay focused, and you were helping them make the better decision. A decision that in the long run, saved them and others some heart ache.

I know this, b/c the people that you have helped, used to get in contact with me and share with me about YOUR words.

Your words, that helped them maybe one more day. Keep on track.



So what I am seeing now, is a role reversal, if you will.

I see now that you may be the one that is need of some guidance.

Hence, Bnd saying Shame. Hence Tommy pants reaching out his hand.

I read what you are saying about you needing the time to think things through.

I hope that is true. I hope that you will not end up choosing, the path of least resistance, and end up choosing the path that will make you proud.

I hope that b/c of what Carrie has done to you, you don't in return say F this it's Me time , and I am gonne do what I want no matter what.

So yes, please think long and hard. B/c that attitude you are displaying is the same attitude that you have been shown, by somone you loved/love. That same attitude that you are showing is that same attitude, that we have all encountered by the spouses that we loved, and it has left a mark. It has left a mark of hurt.



I used to KNOW that you were not that way at all.

Then I read this.

I have spoken to a few of my board friends and have gotten some solid feedback. It isn't helping because to be honest I am feeling a wee bit selfish right now and want what I want.

Seeing someone you care about unwind slowly, is painful.

Especially, when some just want to help, but when the response is I'm fine, more than once. People tend to back off.



I hope that you really do take the time and make the better choices.

Be that person, that you helped me become. Be that person, that no matter how many times I just wanted to say F this, you stepped in and kept my judgement, faith, and morality a float.

Be that person, that helped me make it thru nights of tears and confusion and pain.

The feelings of getting a Divorce are 1 million. They are like a puzzle jumbled in front of you, and to put them together, is exhausting.

I know that feeling. I think most people here that are now Divorced know that feeling.

Let that feeling run it's course.

It is normal.

It is part of the healing process.

Have faith.
Be good in all that you do.

TTYL