Oh no! Please help!!

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I dont think she is being hard on herself. Not anymore at least. Once she made the decision to leave, it was like a big weight was lifted for her. The one thing she seems very concerned about, is not being true to herself & her promise by taking me back. She has done that before more than once and I slipped back into bad habits each time. I really have an uphill battle on my hands to show her that things can be different. At times, she is so tired of everything she seems really not to care if it can be different. She just wants to move on. It really sux

She feels I am being too hard on myself. I dont fully agree, I am just finally taking responsibility for all the stuff I did that contributed to where we are at.

The only thing I have going for myself, and I mean the ONLY thing...is that she is still in the house (due to economic situations beyond our control)

If it wasnt for these outside factors, she would have left a while ago.

So while we still share the same roof, I am trying to make the most of each and every moment to walk the talk in hopes she has a change of heart.

We will see. Seriously though, there were times I was so bad 99% of the human race would never have put up with it as long as she.

The only things I did not do, was physically abuse her or cheat on her. Otherwise, I did damn near every other evil a husband could possibly do/say