PS - I really hope you can find some time to be good to yourself tomorrow.
Sure, go ahead and get the bad feelings out of the way tonight if needed, but you are going through something very difficult. Treat yourself, love yourself - you deserve it!!
Me: 37 Wife: 40 Son: 7yo Son: 18 mo Bomb: 12/31/07 Status: Reconciled 1/2009 but backsliding terribly right now