Onward and upward

[mishka422]

I'm sorry your H is being pants

Ok Lisa, explain. Not sure what that means so I must be REALLY behind on my Brit slang.

You are right Lisa. I'm sure she doesn't know how much we have been talking but it really wouldn't matter if she did since nothing is happening between us. Even if something were happening it wouldn't matter since he's MY H!!!

I spent all day today fighting with myself to NOT text him to ask how he's doing, not contact him at all. Something I read today has been eating at me so I'm going to pose this to you all here because you are such wise DBer's and I'm sure you can help me out.

I have been reading a book about reconciliation titled "When Your Mate Wants Out". It's an excellent book with some really good points. Divorce Care subject last night was on "What the Owner's Manual (the Bible) Says". In both the book and the video the subject of asking for forgiveness for your own shortcomings in the M came up. I have felt it laying on my heart for the past couple of days that I need to approach my H to just ask for his forgiveness in what I feel responsible for in the breakdown of our M. Granted, that portion of the breakdown only equals about 10% of the problem but I still feel burdened by it.

I know this would be considered a R talk but I feel that I need to get this out for myself. I don't expect him to suddenly feel overwhelmed with regret and beg me for forgiveness and up and leave the broom (I like that Lisa! Thanks...much easier than skanky whore to get out in a sentence!). Just as I have forgiven him for myself, not for him. I feel I need to ask for forgiveness for myself as well.

What do you guys think? Is this something I should approach or should I just let it all drop until he initiates a R talk which could be never. In that case I would feel burdened by this forever.