Hmmmmm..... You could call him, and ask if he got your e-mail. And then leave it to him. I don't think that would be pursuing, as long as you stopped right there. It would leave things clearly in his lap, I think.
I like the plan of how to 'be' when you see B. I think if it was me, I'd drop him a text to say you're busy tomorrow now, but you hope he got your e-mail and are looking forward to catching up. And then it's lap of the gods stuff. He WILL get back to you. But isn't it hard waiting?!
((((T)))) hope the festival is going super-fabbily!
thank you so much for your suggestions. Now I have other options instead of thinking I only had the options to pursue or do nothing at all. Last night a friend of mine left me a voicemail that I didn't know I got b/c the little "voicemail envelope" didn't show up on my phone screen. And I thought... who knows maybe he really didn't get the email or something.
Today I had some moments where I felt really crazy and scared!!!!! I talked to a friend here about it (1 of 2 confidantes) and she said, "maybe he's just not getting back to you b/c he is scared." Maybe??????
And then I asked a couple people here if they had any beta blockers just in case.
I just need to remember that no matter what I do it is OK b/c this is just a tiny little bridge of friendship I am trying to build, not a "make or break meeting". ALSO, I need to remember that I don't need to try hard to be different, b/c I have been working so friggin' hard since the bombs, that no matter what I do, it is still going to be radically different from what I was like before, because I am REALLY DIFFERENT NOW!!!!!!!!
if for some reason he does contact me AFTER I tell him I already have plans for tomorrow, would it be bad DB'ing for me to change my plans to work around trying to meet with him???
You want to see him, pretty badly. I think the time is right. You are in a situation where there is an opportunity to see him, and the time is pretty limited. In those circumstances, it doesn't strike me as bad DBing to adjust, if he says he wants to see you. As long as you don't push it on him, I think it is ok.
When you see him, remember, no expectations! You don't even know how YOU are going to feel. Just be T, and see what happens!
I am feeling SO CRAZY right now. I thought I was "over" feeling crazy but I am so, so so nervous and crazy feeling... this afternoon I went for a run and did some yoga & deep relaxation & then I felt better, but now I just feel cRAZY and I don't know what to doo!!!!
