thank you so much for your suggestions. Now I have other options instead of thinking I only had the options to pursue or do nothing at all. Last night a friend of mine left me a voicemail that I didn't know I got b/c the little "voicemail envelope" didn't show up on my phone screen. And I thought... who knows maybe he really didn't get the email or something.
Today I had some moments where I felt really crazy and scared!!!!! I talked to a friend here about it (1 of 2 confidantes) and she said, "maybe he's just not getting back to you b/c he is scared." Maybe??????
And then I asked a couple people here if they had any beta blockers just in case.
I just need to remember that no matter what I do it is OK b/c this is just a tiny little bridge of friendship I am trying to build, not a "make or break meeting". ALSO, I need to remember that I don't need to try hard to be different, b/c I have been working so friggin' hard since the bombs, that no matter what I do, it is still going to be radically different from what I was like before, because I am REALLY DIFFERENT NOW!!!!!!!!
