Thank you H4H I do feel very lonely right now, like I didn't in weeks. Today I miss my W terribly, I miss all the things we liked together, all the moments we shared - also the bad ones. I miss my unite family - I remember when my children were born - the feeling of bonding that I had with my W in that particular moment, being with her during the contractions.... and everything... I don't know.... the thought that we were going to fight together for these kids! I didn't want this D to happen. Only yesterday I was thinking that to get her back she should have to show A LOT of remorse - today during the fight she showed NONE and I would have taken her back in a blink. I know this is no good, I am not showing the character that I should have to even THINK to have her back, and this makes me even more desperate and lonely. Today I feel terrible. I have been crying - but it is not helping - I'll go out and pick up my S and try to cheer up a bit for him. Didn't eat also - I'll go and pick up something to munch. Hopefully tomorrow is going to be better
