Pressing the "speed" button for you, hope you able to pass this pre-post D filing moments and that you regain your strenght, hugs)))))
At this point, I am simply tired.
The battle is close to over and I am feeling worn out.
Maybe I simply need a nap.
I knew ahead of time that the end would be messy. I knew there would be 2 or 3 situations where I would feel the burn. Even knowing that it still hits you and there isn't a damn thing you can do to stop it.
I feel like that guy in a Fish called Wanda, I see the steamroller coming, I even go so far as to mock it as it slowly approaches, and only when it is time to move out of the way do I realize that I am stuck in the cement and it's gonna hit me no matter what I do.
Other things in my life, well they are a little difficult for me to get into right now. To be honest I don't understand all the decisions that I am making and feel like I am somewhat shooting from the hip on some things.
I have spoken to a few of my board friends and have gotten some solid feedback. It isn't helping because to be honest I am feeling a wee bit selfish right now and want what I want. Regretfully, it may hurt in the end, but I am not ready to take a good look at all that right now.
I know this is confusing for some, to others it will make perfect sense. So hang in there folks, could be a bumpy road ahead.....blech.........
