ms ladybug SQUISHED!

[ms ladybug]

Back from swimming lessons.
On my way out the door, I got a call from H. He says, "tell d4 I'll be at her lessons. I'll just be a little late."
He said he had to pick up his dry cleaning first. The swimming lessons are next to the police station so he wanted to put his dry cleaning in his locker for work while he was over there. Well, the dry cleaning is on my way to the lessons and out of his way so I asked if he would like me to pick it up on my way and he said, "yes." I felt a little like patting my back for that small move.
He did sit next to me during the lessons, but made a lot of comments about how d4 wasn't listening, and how she always talks back to us because of my lack of discipline. I agreed and told him I'd become a lot more strict with her lately.
After the lessons, I told h that I needed a picture of him with the kids for the pre-schools father's day board. I had my camera and took a couple pictures (really cute). Then he told me that he thought d4's bathing suit was too small and she needed another one. I agreed, and when I agreed he said, "so your going to go TODAY and get her a new one?" I wasn't really planning to do that today, but I said "yes."

That's when h asked me if I wanted to go have lunch with him and his dad. Of course! I realized on my way over there that I'd have to take off my sunglasses and reveal my swollen, make-up free eyes...but it really didn't matter because he not as so much as glanced in my direction the entire time. That's OK. I did make it light and held it together. Of course the minute I drove out of the parking lot I burst into tears.

I bought the bathing suit too.

OK, cat03, it's not that I don't like your advice, I appreciate ALL advice. We don't see eye to eye on all issues, but I always appreciate your advice.
I do think because of my last stupid comments going dark might be bad. I just also know that right now he doesn't want to hear my words. But, I think he needs to hear SOMETHING from me.

So tell me what, when, and how to say it. Do I send an email explaining anything? I think right now he might not be ready for that either.