Hey thanks for the suggestion to look at "dadnotquitting" for some insight. I'm not sure if my W will ever come around and admit her shortcomings, but I'd like to know that miracles do happen.
Also, I think she's abusive to me as well. She of course says I'm the SOB who is the abuser, but through all of this D, I've been the calm and steady one while she's been angry, mean, condescending, and irrational. I can only hope that my actions will help me in the end. I can only pray that by doing what I think is right, I'll be ok.