Pregnant and trying to be stronger

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SO2 - I've resigned myself to accepting that I need to be patient when it comes to breastfeeding. I know it will be frustrating at first. I would love to KNOW that things aren't good with H and OW, but I will just have to let it be for now.

Forrest, the answer to your first question is: MONEY. However, H DOES NOT take responsibility for anything - EVER. The CS is going to be MY FAULT. He is already gone down that path. His exact words are "I'm going to get screwed with CS if we go to court. You'll get more money than you should and only a part of it will go to our D. The rest will go in your pocket to party with". A$$HOLE!!!!! Yes, I'll be out partying between breastfeeding, pumping, diaper changing, burping, laundry and maybe the occassional sleep period. He sees this as MY fault. Every bit of it. If I had just done this or that, he wouldn't have HAD to leave me. If I just let him buy some diapers and stuff without asking for CS, then I wouldn't be screwing him out of money. I am NOT exaggerating here. I wish I was. I hate knowing that I have a H who is so focused on his own needs and his own wants that nobody else matters. And, when he screws up, he blames it on everyone else. So, for now, just trying to get through the next couple of weeks. I am really on pins and needles though, right now. I have this awful feeling that H is about to do something not so good. I don't like it at all.