my story adventures of a WAW!

[christarn]

story behind the in laws...it's rather ugly..and i will admit full on i said things out of anger that in retrospect, i shouldn't have said...so here goes!

When things were going down hill between my h and i he made a comment to me " if you try to leave me I will take half of your daddies money!" At that point in time, I was super close to his sister in law (H's brothers wife) I called her upset, and said if he does that I will D him, and turn him into the IRS. My H's family has a business...my father in law and two brother in laws are all co-owners....when my H is laid off, they would hire him for cash under the table. Needless to say, my sister in law, who I thought I cuold confide in, (WRONG! WRONG! WRONG!) and who I thought would realize I was just PO'd (WRONG!WRONG!WRONG!) decided to tell the whole family...but twisted my words...saying I would turn the whole company in for tax evasion...not what I said.

My H is one of 6 children...needless to say there is always drama! His family tends to pick on whatever family member isn't in the house at the current moment and backstab away...his mom is the worst. I never realized it...until I was away from it...now I can only imagine what was being said about me. Anyway, when H and I were talking more frequently, he made mention to the fact of how hurt they were by what I did. How they used to be really proud to have me be a part of their family...but after what I did...not so much.

I know, deep down in my heart of hearts, I said and did things that were inappropriate. I know, if I had a child and a person did what I did to my child, I would be upset. I am not trying to do this to get my H's attention...if that were the case, I would have done it a long time ago. I just feel as if enough time has past, it is the "right" thing to do. His family welcomed me with open arms through some of the hardest times in my life....and I let them down...I need, for my own self, to let them know, I know, what I did was wrong. And in reflection, if I could change it I would a million times over.

I just know I will have to be careful of my wording, as I don't want them to think I am arrogant or self riteous. I want to be as honest and sincere as I can be.

that is my backstory, on the inlaws...I'm not real proud of how I acted toward the end of my days that I lived with my H....but am looking forward to the days ahead, days in which he will see the growth inside....and where this...this crazy process has taken me.

christa