The Bumpy Road to Recovery

[Bagheera]

I can hardly bear to look back at myself at age 26....

Well, to be fair: after returning home from sea and letting my wife look through those journal entries, she would tell me how hard it was for her to feel a physical desire for me without first re-establishing emotional intimacy between us. Although I was gone much of the time, she needed to feel like I was doing what I could to support her and help her care for our (then) 1 year old boy -- who had become the center of her universe.

Neither one of us really "GOT" the other one, and neither one of us, therefore, were getting our own needs met.

I was no better than you, DQ, not at all.

-- B.