in limbo and an emotional mess...

[MAZ]

Hi Sugar- yes the weight loss is actually ok with me,, been trying to do that for years,,, just not a healthy way to do it, the sleeping is a big issue for me,, yesterday with everything going on I actually was very lightheaded in the afternoon, probably due to lack of sleep and not really eating. But yes the exhaustion takes alot out of you. I'm tempted to just let H do whatever as well,,,I have so many people telling me to stop putting myself through this, that I deserve to be treated better than this,,my neighbor tells me to stop letting him beat me up emotionally like this,, he tells me i'm an awesome mom and any guy would die to have someone like me,, course i'm like yeh right,,nice to hear but still can't just let go. LOL the Troll,, good nickname, but yes the OW in your sitch sounds alot alike,, she gets mad if I call, or text, etc. She too was mad that he spend mothers day with me and the boys (like she had any tie to him on that day) She is crazy, and I do think he will get tired of her, it is just so hard to get out of the situation. You almost feel like by doing that your giving up,, I hope you are able to figure out what is best for you and that you don't have to walk away,, what is your H asking of you? Is he still home? or living with her,,and how are you dealing with the OW being pregnant?. I give you a lot of credit for even trying with that going on. I told H if that happens I will be done... our kids know pretty much everything.. especially the older one,,,we'll see what happens this weekend... the boys have 3 baseball games and a family birthday party to go to so that'll be my weekend,, see if he shows up for anything or not.. gonna be sunny and 95 here all weekend so at the least i'll sit and watch the boys play and work on my tan just get some fresh air
I hope you have a good day, and thanks