Yes...and there is NO MORE CHEATING of any kind available in my life from now on.
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
But ... I know somehow.. someway.. "This" (What you are doing right now) is going to work out for the better. I know I said.. the key to you winning.. was to be strong. You fought with me on that. You told me that was not you. Now just as then.. I beg to differ.
"Let me just say I really like the strength in your voice. I know that seems like a weird comment but I just like who you are. You are just strong."
I said that 3ish months ago. The thing about it was.. (That I was not clear about) your DAM is looking for that.
Stand up... be you. Show us.. who you can be.
"Strength"
I think you may find.. you resemble that remark.
Thank you... for the kind words.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
Sara, I only started posting last week but in that time you have been so supportive of me and my problems. I wanted to thank you for being such a generous person. Sometimes, people like you can give too much and it can hurt really badly when then love is not returned. You were giving too much to your H, but now I think you see that that love needs to be focused on YOU.
I can not imagine the amount of strength it took to see your H car in OW driveway and not smash in the windows. The fact that you change your number shows that you are taking steps to take back your life, and in a healthy way for you. I am so proud of the courage you have and I hope that one day I can find some of the stregth you posses. (((SARA)))
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
sara, you've done great honey))))))))))))))))))))))))))
again, it's like looking at my stbx when I read of your h, specially the part where he is flip floping and telling you he doesnt' want a D, of course he doesn't want a D! his cake eating will end! stbx also told me he had feelings for me but for the life of him the ow's obsession/guilt had him by the balls. They are no men for us hon, not even half the men they were, so it isnt' a great loss.
Kudos in changing your #. I also had tm feature just to chat with him, my heart would flutter when I heard the chime. But it was always drama when we tm, and when I took the tm feature off to save $ it felt better actually, I'd miss hearing from him, but after he told me he wanted a D and all that, there was no point. It will help you detach and you will feel much better, trust me honey, you will do much much better))))))))))))))) you are in my daily prayers.
Stop trying to find fault in yourself, nothing you did ever warranted the betrayal and hurt he's put you through.
Quote:
"My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness" (II Corinthians 12:9).
(from Joel Osteen's daily devotional)
Grace is God's unmerited favor. It's kindness from Him that we don't deserve. Grace empowers us and strengthens us. No matter what has happened in your past, you can receive God's grace and forgiveness and start fresh today. You can hold your head up high because His grace is enough. You may not be perfect, but you are forgiven. When you go around holding on to your past mistakes or think you have to try to make things up to God, it's like saying that His grace isn't enough. Jesus has already paid for your mistakes. All you have to do is receive His grace today and thank Him for His favor and empowerment in your life. As you allow God's grace to flow through you, you will be strengthened and empowered. You'll see yourself rise higher, and you will enjoy God's blessing in every area of your life.
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for Your goodness and grace today. I receive Your strength and favor in my life. Help me to extend that grace to others. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Again I want to thank you all for your wonderful encouraging words. You all understand how difficult this is.
I hate that I do not have control over my house. H leaves me a message when I come home (just now at 1130) that he needs to be in the house to study from 12:30-2:30 which means all of my plans for the house today (practice my guitar and do some things around the house). Instead I am going to go to the library and work on my book. But still...I hate the control that he has. He wants to be in the house so he can. It sucks.
Sara
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
Wish you could just change the locks. Do you have several doors so that you could change all but one and just not tell H which one it is?
After our first court date, when he wasn't saying a word, I was so upset I took all of my house keys back so I haven't had to change mine. I know how you are feeling. (((((Sara)))))
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Not for long Sara, so at least you can look forward to fixing up your house and making it your own soon! Maybe start planning on changes you will make or something if not maybe even doing some of them? Oooh, and what's that about your book??? I'm hoping for details!!! Karen
