lwb, thanks for your thoughts and support- you are exactly right in feeling like they're stealing my emotions and physical stuff and giving it to them. I've tried to tell H that,, he doesn't seem to understand it though..he just says just because i'm at my place doesn't mean he and OW are doing something,, first off i'm not an idiot,, 2nd off,, like i told H, it doesn't matter if you don't do something,, she is there with you, she has your time, I don't care if your sleeping, studying, or watching tv,, she is there,, he'll be like whats the difference if i'm doing all that at his place or ours,,duh,, your there with her and the boys and I are here and your not! As far as the kids I try not to react in front of them, I try to act as normal as I can,, but yes some days it is just more difficult to hide the hurt. As far as contacting H in case of something dire,, i'll get to that in a little later post when I have a little more time. But I wanted to say thank you for your support,, everyone here is great and its nice to have people truly understand what your going through.
MAZ Me 40 H 42 M 1990 Together 20 years Bomb 2/16/08 Separated 03/01/2008 2 boys 12 & 15
