She sucks me in. For me, it has been all about her for so long. I am co-dependent on her. I have used her as a gauge for my happiness for so long. So long.
It was odd for her to be calling me in the morning like that. I had to take the call. I am a worry wort. Worry about everything. My mind races at what could have happened. Something could be wrong. The way our luck is with cars, she could have been broken down on the side of the road.
I should have taken the call, told her, "Thats good", and cut the phone call to get ready for work.
I guess that is how all of our conversations should be?
To the point and business like?
Seems like that would make me want to leave all the more, too. I suppose that is the point. Encourage her to leave, but with my kids? That's what I don't want.
I'm not trying to be sarcastic. Just trying to sort through thoughts.
I already knew she was still in contact with OM. The TM's really told me nothing other than I found out about another phone she apperantly has somewhere.
If I let her go, then the kids go with her. I cannot afford an attorney right now. I feel stuck. I feel like I'm just trying to make the best of my sh**y situation.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."