I am trying to be patient and go with the flow for now and Most importantly I feel like I have to keep reminding myself that things will take a long time to work through and our M wont be fixed over night.
There are many many things and issues that I am struggling with that I dont know what to do about: - H's alcoholism - H wont talk to/visit with my family yet - H want to absolutely kill my older brother (who is also an alcoholic) - H only wants to hang out with his new friends and not reconnect with any of our friends from the past. - H wont do holidays with my family any more. - H still hasnt talked seriously about making any moving dates together. - H still acts and says things that blame me. - H is slightly secretive still. - H is not talking about our future together much at all. - H is still spending lots of money & being selfish.
These are the bad things I am sensing as we are reconnecting and I am just besides myself with fear and pain.
He has also done several things to show me he wants to have our M work. I will list them later when I get time. TIPPER
