sara, you've done great honey))))))))))))))))))))))))))
again, it's like looking at my stbx when I read of your h, specially the part where he is flip floping and telling you he doesnt' want a D, of course he doesn't want a D! his cake eating will end! stbx also told me he had feelings for me but for the life of him the ow's obsession/guilt had him by the balls. They are no men for us hon, not even half the men they were, so it isnt' a great loss.
Kudos in changing your #. I also had tm feature just to chat with him, my heart would flutter when I heard the chime. But it was always drama when we tm, and when I took the tm feature off to save $ it felt better actually, I'd miss hearing from him, but after he told me he wanted a D and all that, there was no point. It will help you detach and you will feel much better, trust me honey, you will do much much better))))))))))))))) you are in my daily prayers.
Stop trying to find fault in yourself, nothing you did ever warranted the betrayal and hurt he's put you through.
Quote:
"My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness" (II Corinthians 12:9).
(from Joel Osteen's daily devotional)
Grace is God's unmerited favor. It's kindness from Him that we don't deserve. Grace empowers us and strengthens us. No matter what has happened in your past, you can receive God's grace and forgiveness and start fresh today. You can hold your head up high because His grace is enough. You may not be perfect, but you are forgiven. When you go around holding on to your past mistakes or think you have to try to make things up to God, it's like saying that His grace isn't enough. Jesus has already paid for your mistakes. All you have to do is receive His grace today and thank Him for His favor and empowerment in your life. As you allow God's grace to flow through you, you will be strengthened and empowered. You'll see yourself rise higher, and you will enjoy God's blessing in every area of your life.
A Prayer for Today
Heavenly Father, thank You for Your goodness and grace today. I receive Your strength and favor in my life. Help me to extend that grace to others. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.