like a BB in a boxcar.....

[Committed2Him]

yawn... what time is it? YIKES! (fell asleep and have been wide awake since 1 a.m. left coast time )

maybe it was just to offer up some sleep deprived (inspired?) posts?

You know, I am going back to looking at things with, hopefully, a proper perspective. I did a reevaluation of my budget, obligations and am just pretty darn sure that there is no way I can keep my house, even if I find two people to rent out rooms. This led me to reflect on my X's lack of courage regarding the divorce, her decision to hide the truth that she was moving forward with another relationship. Had she done so, I could have sold the house which was then at the market peak, instead of hanging on to it, hoping to get back together. I would have walked away with $125,000 in equity instead of losing everything.

I am also dealing with the graduation of my 8th grader (Sunday) that will be hard on him because my dad is very angry with X, which means we will not all celebrate together afterwards.

Oh yeah, I forgot, I've been lobbying for forgiveness So these thoughts are stirring in my head at almost 4 a.m. and so I cry out to my God. I chose to listen to some hawaiian songs I played while on the Hawaiian trip and put on a random slide show up on the pc. while I type this.

I am reminded that I am not taking any of my assets (that I no longer have with me anyway LOL!) to heaven. Yet I am serving my God with ALL my heart and am rich, VERY RICH, in that regard! (I am just loving some of these pics which I haven't looked at until just now)

SO, ummm, back to the encouragement. Love Him with all your heart, soul and mind and everything else will fall into place. Just now, I realized I needed to pray for X. We can know God and still be distant from Him or shameful to be in His presence. I truly hope X is cool with the Lord. The more she is, the better we will get along.

bless you (I need some sleep)