Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

Well, Last night was just kind of there. I got home and WW was fairly talkative, but not like she's been lately. I asked her if she decided to go and she said no so I went out without her.

Sat at my normal hangout playing online trivia with my new found best friends . Came home and WW was pretty quiet and I went to bed. That's about the extent of the night.

When I went to bed I laid there thinking that she's probably still in contact with OM when she's at work. She's been on vacation for a week now and the first part of it she was really in good moods, engaging, etc but the last couple days she's more quiet etc. I began to think that she's starting to WD from him again.

Ok, I know I need to quit the stinkin thinkin. Things have been progressing and just because she's been more quiet the last couple days doesn't mean she's in contact. Heck, maybe it means she's thinking about US. Maybe it means she's starting to figure this out since she's had a whole week of being home with plenty of time to have some serious conversations with herself.

Who knows? This is the hard part about limbo land. Once you're pretty sure the affair is over but the wayward hasn't fully committed to the marriage you over analyze everything. I just need to convince myself to not read too much into her being a little more quiet and keep up my GAL and PMA which will do more than anything to win her back even if she's in contact with the POS.

Should be a fun weekend. I'm going to suggest going somewhere tomorrow to watch the Belmont Stakes. The last time there was a chance for a Triple Crown winner WW and I went to a sports bar and had a great afternoon watching the pre-race and then the actual race. Saturday morning DS16 finishes his drivers ed. Sunday is my friend Deb's daughter's grad party and while WW hasn't said whether she's going or not, I'm going to go and have a good time.

Talk to you all soon.