Onward and upward

[mishka422]

That's my point exactly Jack. I'm afraid that I would stop all of my GAL activities because I tend to fall back into patterns very easily. I'm working on that. I am a pleaser and I will drop everything I am doing to take care of the people I love to my own detriment.

It has taken me quite a bit of therapy and time to be able to put myself first sometimes. I'm really enjoying myself most of the time now which is the first time in a LONG time. I hadn't realized how many years I spent making everyone else's lives easier and making my own harder and harder until I became a person I don't especially like. No wonder H didn't want me anymore. I wasn't the woman I once was at all. I had lost all my fun loving nature, my silly, flirty, banter. I stopped having much of a sense of humor and took life FAR too seriously. NO MORE! I'm so glad I found my fun side again!

Anywho.....I'm headed to bed. Early morning again tomorrow (or today I guess since it's after midnight) but at least it's FRIDAY!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!