Thanks to all of you C2, Beth, Karen, quo and Donna... I can't tell you how much your words and prayers encourage me.
I'd really be lost if it weren't for the support I find here when the waters get choppy! I'm in a much better frame of mind than earlier in the day. I had my meltdown and even stomped and cried, I told God that I was really sick of falling backwards and that I was pretty angry with Him.... that enough was enough and I thought I'd reached my enough! So impart the wisdom already! He let me vent but as of this moment He's still reserving the great impartation of wisdom for His timing.
Guess I just needed to blow my stack and get it all out .... and again thanks to all of you for being there.
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.