so quick update said I wasnt going to anymore, but sometimes.....you just do.


Had court today, I didn't go.I signed the parenting plan and dropped it in my lawyers inbox with a note asking her to "handle" it for me.

One more step and I am officially divorced. I am feeling:

Relieved
sickened
free
like a failure
sad
happy
scared
like throwing up
Like having a celebratory dinner
like drinking


So a bit up and down I would say. I also completed my bankruptcy filing Monday. That was a difficult thing to do as I have always prided myself on making my way and taking care of my responsibilities. It is also a huge relief in ways. It also hurts giving up the home that I practically grew up in. My house was my grandfathers home, and now it will be leveled and a new one built in its place. It was also the home that I remodeled for my wife, new kitchen, new floors, new master bath, and new appliances. A lot of memories, not gone, but misplaced.



that about covers it. Thanks to those of you who have checked up on me.


Ian


M- 48
XW- mentally 17
KIDS- 3- S19, D23, D28
Married- 17 years
Divorce final- 10/16/09