H got back from work and was very distant before the appt. We had to drive separately because I was leaving for work after that. He made sure I got through traffic and got a metered spot (kept me on the phone the entire time driving there).
He spent the drive and the wait to see the atty randomly complaining about EVERYTHING (why this office? why in clayton, during rush hour? this office is hot. why are you so tan already? lol). He was very nervous, I was calm.
Very nice mediator, she is straightforward, talked about there being no secrets, everything on the table. She will not talk to one of us without the other one there, etc. She gave us a ton of paperwork to fill out. Oh my so much paperwork.
The consultation went by quickly (bye bye $100) and I think we will be using her.
I am in an ok place. H didn't stand up in the meeting and announce that he wants to reconcile, so we are moving forward. I will push the paperwork, do the work, because I want this house (well, I want this M, but that's not in my hands), and the atty needs the financial paperwork asap.
H walked me to my car after, called me three times on the way to work, totally trying to read my mood. I was fine. I am fine. I will be fine.
Editing for 2 reasons:
1. Because I can!
2. To thank you guys for the great support. It means a lot.
I will push the paperwork, do the work, because I want this house (well, I want this M, but that's not in my hands), and the atty needs the financial paperwork asap. 