If she had done this 6 months ago, she would already be peed at me because I said the wrong thing.....or would not have even gone, for fear of the battle that would ensue, or the snide remarks about "where she was, or who she was with"....
Must....fight.....for....control.....shock therapy maybe? One of those dog collars that gives a shock? Every time I have one these thoughts I could just give myself a zap.
Really though...it's just the stress of it all....not wanting to lose her..waiting for the other boot to drop...spending SO much time together constantly gives the impression things are progressing in the right direction....and if they are and we end up staying together, these are the things I need to get past. She NEEDS her independence....we both need our independence if we are to be together and have a normal life.
As I said, I do cherish her. I would not be putting myself through this if I didn't.
I will get there if she lets me...checking the area for counseling this week...need to check with my insurance co. about coverage....really, I have already looked into it.
