Onward and upward

[mishka422]

You all are the best! I'm so intrigued by this fishing expedition. He sent me a funny sound file after this conversation. I told him thanks and I was going to sleep since I had to get up early.

Speaking of fishing...H came over to the house today and picked up S13 to take him fishing. He left his car parked out front and took the golf cart to the lake which I had told him he could do anytime he wanted. My heart nearly came out of my chest when I turned onto our street at lunch and his car was out front. It was ridiculous. I knew he wasn't there but it still made me have palpitations. Dumb, I know.

I got back to my office after lunch, looked out the window and who was in the parking lot? H and S13 on the golf cart. I went outside to say hi and H told me they were done fishing and were heading back home and thought they would stop by and say hi. Hmmmmmm......H is driving the cart, H told me this, my son barely looked at me since he was playing his gameboy. Whose decision was this? Let me think.......... My office is NOT on the way home from the lake they were fishing at but H's bank is so that's probably why they were over here.

Anyway.......I'm just going to play it off. If H contacts me, great. If he doesn't, oh well. I'm feeling so much better about my life now in general but I'm afraid if H suddenly made a move back toward me I might teeter in my resolve to better myself.