Is He Really Happier?

[Florie]

The day after the moving out announcement I got an email from him saying he felt like everything was moving fast, it felt surreal and he didn't know who he was or what he wanted. He has not told his parents because he thinks they will completely freak out and he can't face it. He says he feels sick all the time and almost starts crying when he reads/writes emails. He is still with the girlfriend and I don't know any more about that. He says he feels he is doing the right thing and than moving out might help him think more clearly. I confronted hiim about it last night (because a big issue is that we do everything via email and don't talk about upsetting stuff). I was somewhat hopeful after the email since this was the first time he had seemed not totally sure of everything in front of me since this all happened, but he seemed much more closed off when we talked, like he didn't want to give me any hope. I suggested slowing things down but he didn't seem open to that despite the email. He said if this was the direction things were going to go in he didn't want to delay it. He is moving out first week in July. He mentioned how fast it seems we have become distant and how well I seemed to be doing which surprised him. I am going to try and continue as I have been until he moves out. It is so hard knowing his girlfriend is in the picture and probably a stress free fun person to be around. I just have to try not to focus on her and focus on me. I even said to him that i had thought about what i would do if he ever wanted to come back and i didn't know the answer. He said nothing and I probably should not have said that. Oh well. Another day another drama!!