Hi PS, You sound like you're working so hard on self-improvement and your anxiety issues. I'm not sure why you don't feel like you're making adequate progress. I would venture to guess, that it's easy to slip into old habits, which I'm sure is frustrating for you.
I could understand your disappointment that your H is not being supportive to you around these issues. You've said that he is not a mindful person, so can't relate to what it's like to be obsessive and ruminative about something.
Your H doesn't have to be your anxiety coach, but he can still cheerlead from the sidelines. This may be one of those topics, where the less said, the better.
My advice is keep breathing and soothing your mind. There can only be positive outcomes from having a calmer you.
A quote I keep in my back pocket is:
"It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you don't stop."
------Confucious
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
