I am just miserable. Thank goodness S is with a sitter because I can't stop crying. We were out running errands and I ran into OM. He was with some other girl. He didn't see me at first, but he looked really good and I just stared at them. I felt so sad and soooo jealous! He then saw me and came up to me and looked really "pained". He introduced me to the girl and said it was his friend. He explained that they just do things together and that she knows how much he loves me with her right there. She left and he told me how he has never kissed her, they aren't like that, etc. etc. and he wants me to know that he still has hope for me because he knows that I don't love H. I couldn't even respond. S came over then and so I couldn't talk. I just said goodbye and left. I'm a complete mess right now. I'm second guessing what I'm doing. I don't think I'd be jealous if I saw my H with someone else!!!!!!! I don't have the same feelings for him as I do OM. Maybe I don't love my H enough. H has the things that make me feel safe and loved and taken care of and he'd do anything for me, OM gives me goosebumps and makes my heart flutter but is seriously financially a mess and has anger issues. I just can't stop crying. I am a mess!!!! Is there ever a time when you SHOULD leave a marriage? What are those times? These are very raw emotions here as I am typing. I need you guys!
