IL, I can ALWAYS count on you to show the silver lining even in the darkest of times. I know I have to stop this addictive behavior of constantly thinking of him. Each time he pops into my head I say "STOP". So far, been saying it about ever 4 seconds. I called a psychologist today to set up an appointment to try and get through this. I need to get stronger but see that I need help in order to do it.
I am terrified to file the Legal seperation papers. I am affraid that it means D is a short hop away. Still, I understand that I have to financially protect myself and son. H has been blowing through money with his OW like it is water. <Sigh> He never did that with me.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
