Friends-- Thank you for the words of encouragement, before and after the meeting. ot, I am thinking about breaking from posting again....but I do feel like others understand me here, in a way that no one else can. Even if I take it to the -enth degree. I did like the article that you sent, and I agree that most, if not all, are pretty sick of hearing about my sitch and how I have been stuck in the same place for so long.
So, now it is my turn to pretend, to "act as if." You all know how shredded my heart is. You have all been there. I am going to try to express nothing but positive things for a while, say 2 weeks. Change the focus up a bit. (Should be a challenge, with the D next week). When my head starts to go to the past, the what ifs, the future, I will just start singing or doing something goofy. I have been self-indulgent to my feelings for too long. This may not make me feel any better on the inside (I usually get frustrated on top of being sad/angry/upset when I try to redirect), but at least it will make it easier for people to be around me.
When others ask "How are you?", they really don't want to hear anything other than "Fine! Great! You?" I will leave it at that and see what happens.
So, my classes went great today. I love the room I teach in, and the people I get to teach with. The kids are well-behaved and enthusiastic. I swapped out a huge Chinese dragon mural for a Rainforest collaborative piece today and got a load of compliments. I made a major dent in a special project that the principal asked me to do. I am off from here to Brownies, and I'm really looking forward to camping with my girls this weekend. My S has a campout, as well, and when we are both done, we are going to a street-luge team tryout (how random is that?).
