I know how you must have felt but the reality is, what did he really win? He threw away his family and he permanently left a hole in the hearts of everyone who loved him, especially his kids. Let's just say that right now he doesn't want to admit to anything and is even feeling entitled to act as he has. In time things won't always seem so rosey and he'll be left to deal with the guilt. I'm seeing this now from my ex but it took almost 6 years. Of course we were only divorced last year so it may of taken him a bit longer but I think 5 years is pretty much the timeline.
Anyway, I was flipping the TV the other night and one of those creepy gameshows was on where to win money you have to tell the truth about your deepest darkest secrets, and you generally have to tell them in front of people that the truth will hurt most. I heard this girl talking about her parents divorce so I was hooked. They asked her how she would describe the relationship with her Dad now. She said, "oh great never better." All these years later (she was 8 or 9 at the time)she admitted (with her Dad right there in front of her) that she believed he made a mistake in leaving her Mom (they asked him hoe it felt to hear that and he said, I agree with her. When asked she also said that she believed he was untrustworthy & that she'd never wanted a relationship with a man like her Dad, and that he ruined her childhood. So much for all of the feelings that she had been stuffing inside for all those years.
My point is that he really didn't get away with anything and sooner or later it WILL catch up with him!
Sweetie, there's nothing crazy about you. You were the one who went home to your kids, fed them and put them to bed. Even as sad as your day was you put your feelings on the back burner and went home to do what was right for your children. I'd say you're the one who is living in the real world!
