This is the one thing that I tell myself over and over.
"Another day that I take this sh** is another day that I have with my kids. Us together as a family."
We lose sight of that sometimes, I think. It's not just about me. It is about the promise I made my kids to go as long as I can to keep us together.
One way or another.
If along the way, I can restore and keep my relationship with WW, then great. It might lead us back down the road to reconciliation. I hope so. If it doesn't, then so be it.
I know that I am the best thing that has ever happened to my wife, aside from the kids. She is the best thing to ever happen to me, again, aside from my kids. That is just the way it is. Someday WW will realize this. Hopefully it will be before she has really killed us and I have moved on. I can let her go, if I have to. It is letting my kids go.
THAT is the problem. I REFUSE to be a part time dad. Not be there to wake them up. Make them breakfast. Brushing their hair while thay are yelling at me to stop pulling so hard. Watching WW brush their hair with no problem. Working on homework every night. Laying on me while they fall asleep in front of the tv. Getting on their case for not drying themselves after a bath and clothes sticking to them. Smelling hands after they told me they washed them and I don't believe them. Kissing boo boo's. Goodnight kisses and huggies. Catching them getting into the candy or cookies or chips when we told them no. D11's clothes on the bathroom floor after every shower. Ya'll know the list is endless.
I know I will still have these things if things don't work out. Just part time. That is why I have told WW that I will fight for them if she wants to leave.
And again, everyday I can take what WW gives, is another day with us together as a family.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."