I figured it out. Though I want to create a life with someone, I don't want just anyone.
True Love is the ultimate goal. What I've realized is that what I want is so huge and I've been treating it like it's something I'm entitled to or deserve or can work towards.
Actually it's something so amazing, a true blessing that only a few are bestowed with and of those, only a few who recognize it's worth and treat it accordingly.
That said, I need to let it go.
So, letting go having a partner in my life, what problems does this create in my life? Well, loneliness, especially at night.
So, I need to find something to fill my time at that part of the day. Something fun or something involving people.
Some ideas I've come up with are: Taking a class Watching movies Reading books, even perhaps the Bible.
I'm going to prepare myself with a scheduled something to do at the end of each day from now on.
I'm going to try to meet all my needs and create a more fulfilling life without a partner.
Thanks for all of your advice. I tend to get into self-pity mode when I have negative feelings.
