like a BB in a boxcar.....

[Committed2Him]

(((lnf)))

Truth:
We will have to fight this the rest of our lives.


Comfort:
It will get better. Page through some Psalms

Forgiveness:
We make progress but in the spiritual realm, the enemy looks to see where our weak point is and he picks at it like the weak, bully he is. Weak in that he has no power except what our Lord allows him. Weak in that he must flee with his tale behind his legs when you stand on the eternal word of God.

I am ferverently praying for you this morning now and as I make my (prayer warrior) commute to work.

"Lord, you know my sister's pain. Please comfort her, rebuke the enemy and allow her to meditate on the things that are lovely, that her precious one may be away for a week but she does live with lnf and can daily witness up close how YOU love them both, that you provide, that YOU do not turn your back on them as man does. Please reach her X, break him, show him the error of his ways so that lnf knows that she knows that she knows the he has tuly repented for this will help her forgiveness. Should she never experience this because of the hardness of his heart, let her nevertheless find her comfort in you, in you word and in the knowledge that nothing escapes your attention, that you are loving beyond human comprehension. Please pour out your love on her today that she know You are God. Amen"

[BethM]

((((((((((((((((LNF))))))))))))))))))

I feel for you Sweetie. I'm sure I would feel much the same. No wait, I would be worse. I see how you've handled this whole sitch and I can tell you that the kind of grace that you've shown sitting in the same church service Sunday after Sunday amazes me, and I really don't think I could do it. Don't be so hard on yourself. You are human afterall and they can mess with us all they want, but when it comes to our cubs the claws come out!

AWWW C2,

Another beautiful prayer!

[KarenMarieS]

((( LNF)))
Sometimes it just boils up inside us, I'm sorry you feel so bad.
It hits all of us still I am sure. Hope you are feeling better soon.

[qoe100]

LNF, I promise the day will come when these things won't make you so stinkin' mad that you want to rip the veins out of his throat!!! It will happen!!!

[Reincarnated]

I agree that the "mother bear" instinct is very strong--it has been given to us for a reason. It is a POSITIVE thing to want to protect your child. It is just how you channel that energy. You are very strong in your faith; pray for her. And know that your example and love, built up over these many years of her life, acts as a shield from permanent damage, so that whatever happens will be but a challenge and learning opportunity for her as she continues to grow. The foundation that you have built for her is strong and will see her through. You will also be the one who she goes home to, where any hardships she might encounter will quickly deminish is size when she comes home.
((((lnf))))

[lost-n-found]

Thanks to all of you C2, Beth, Karen, quo and Donna... I can't tell you how much your words and prayers encourage me.

I'd really be lost if it weren't for the support I find here when the waters get choppy! I'm in a much better frame of mind than earlier in the day. I had my meltdown and even stomped and cried, I told God that I was really sick of falling backwards and that I was pretty angry with Him.... that enough was enough and I thought I'd reached my enough! So impart the wisdom already! He let me vent but as of this moment He's still reserving the great impartation of wisdom for His timing.

Guess I just needed to blow my stack and get it all out .... and again thanks to all of you for being there.

[Committed2Him]

(((lnf)))

Still praying for you.

I was blessed to be going through a men's study in spiritual warfare right when much of my X's betrayal was being discovered. During that time we also had a two week period to study some chaptes in Job so I wound up reading the book of Job.

Chapters 40-42 is where things turn for Job:

Chapter 40: 1-14:

1 Moreover the Lord answered Job, and said: 2 "Shall the one who contends with the Almighty correct Him? He who rebukes God, let him answer it." 3 Then Job answered the Lord and said: 4 "Behold, I am vile; What shall I answer You? I lay my hand over my mouth. 5 Once I have spoken, but I will not answer; Yes, twice, but I will proceed no further."

6 Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said: 7 "Now prepare yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me: 8 "Would you indeed annul My judgment? Would you condemn Me that you may be justified? 9 Have you an arm like God? Or can you thunder with a voice like His? 10 Then adorn yourself with majesty and splendor, And array yourself with glory and beauty. 11 Disperse the rage of your wrath; Look on everyone who is proud, and humble him. 12 Look on everyone who is proud, and bring him low; Tread down the wicked in their place. 13 Hide them in the dust together, Bind their faces in hidden darkness. 14 Then I will also confess to you That your own right hand can save you.

Although the situation is bad, I realized that were I to question God and remain angry, I would know that I was missing something. Job was righteous, I was not, I really have no right to question God and expect an answer, in spite of how unfair it seems.

To use a really deep spirtual word, it SUCKS but God will eventually bring something good out of this for you. (Romans 8:28)

Again, I am praying and praying for.

[Committed2Him]

yawn... what time is it? YIKES! (fell asleep and have been wide awake since 1 a.m. left coast time )

maybe it was just to offer up some sleep deprived (inspired?) posts?

You know, I am going back to looking at things with, hopefully, a proper perspective. I did a reevaluation of my budget, obligations and am just pretty darn sure that there is no way I can keep my house, even if I find two people to rent out rooms. This led me to reflect on my X's lack of courage regarding the divorce, her decision to hide the truth that she was moving forward with another relationship. Had she done so, I could have sold the house which was then at the market peak, instead of hanging on to it, hoping to get back together. I would have walked away with $125,000 in equity instead of losing everything.

I am also dealing with the graduation of my 8th grader (Sunday) that will be hard on him because my dad is very angry with X, which means we will not all celebrate together afterwards.

Oh yeah, I forgot, I've been lobbying for forgiveness So these thoughts are stirring in my head at almost 4 a.m. and so I cry out to my God. I chose to listen to some hawaiian songs I played while on the Hawaiian trip and put on a random slide show up on the pc. while I type this.

I am reminded that I am not taking any of my assets (that I no longer have with me anyway LOL!) to heaven. Yet I am serving my God with ALL my heart and am rich, VERY RICH, in that regard! (I am just loving some of these pics which I haven't looked at until just now)

SO, ummm, back to the encouragement. Love Him with all your heart, soul and mind and everything else will fall into place. Just now, I realized I needed to pray for X. We can know God and still be distant from Him or shameful to be in His presence. I truly hope X is cool with the Lord. The more she is, the better we will get along.

bless you (I need some sleep)

[Committed2Him]

lnf

Praying blessings upon you this day!

[BethM]

Hey you 2 should get together. You both had the graduation blues to deal with. LNF has a house, C2 might not.

..........and you both deal with foregiveness better than anyone I've ever heard of. Nah, maybe you'd better spread yourselves out. Many of us here are still needing to hear of why we should and what the are benefits. I know that I seem to a short memory.

Besides C2, I don't know if you're ready for her inner Biatch! Not pretty!