What are we doing, where am I, where are we at?

[stillfighting]

Yepp, it's a ride and I'm on it. I do plan on getting off. I have been reading a lot on MLC on this board and there a a lot of info. I do think she is in MLC and that would explain her irrational, egoistic, selfish thinking. She did agree to watch the Mariage Breakthrough DVD that is available to purchase from this site. I don't know if that will give a wake up call or not. But if it is MLC and it does smell like it, then she need to ride this coaster by herself. There's nothing I can say or do to make her changer her thaughts right now. I would like to read some info on WAW's in MLC, anybody who can point me in the right direction? I have prepared me menatly to DETACH slowly but leaving the door open just a bit. I try to not get scared about her actions and words, the pain is there, dissapointment, my self-esteem is shot, I think a lot about the kids reactions and so on. One day at a time, back to square one only more educated this time.

/OP