Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

Thanks Pup, I knew if anyone would understand, it would be you.

Another pretty decent night at home. WW was not quite as talkative as the previous days. She was reading another book that talks about a Dr's wife having an affair and how the affair "reawakened her passion". Make's me sick, but what 'cha gonna do?

Anyway, WW did something for ME last night. Might not seem like much to others here, but I thought it was another step forward. At 8:00 I got up to go upstairs and watch the NHL finals. I asked WW (who had control of the remote) to check and see what channel the game was on, so she flipped to the guide and found the channel and I got up to go and she turned the game on so I could watch it in the family room! And she sat right there with me. Now she was reading her book most of the time, but for her to turn the game on (she likes live hockey, but hates it on t.v.) for me to watch in the same room as her is another step forward.

But like I mentioned yesterday, now I'm finding my anger really begin to grow. I sat there watching the game and could just feel my blood pressure going up. I'd look at her and she seemed so content sitting there reading her book like everything is working out fine for her, she has an affair that "reawakens her passion", get's to remain in the marriage with her husband kissing her a**, kids still loving her even with what she's done and she doesn't have to do any work to help ME recover.....and I could have just screamed. I actually went to bed earlier than I needed to because I couldn't stand to be in the room with her any longer.

She'd better admit she F'd up and begin giving me some help soon or I just might blow and be the WAS. Is this normal? Now that it seems like we might be headed in the right direction, I'm the one that is having second thoughts?