Onward and upward

[mishka422]

I just wasn't sure. I felt ok after the interaction but it was just so against my nature not to tell him off for being an inconsiderate jerk. Maybe that's why he finally called and apologized though. I did a 180 and didn't even realize it was one I guess.

H did take S13 to karate tonight. He was about 5 minutes late picking him up and S was getting panicky about it but H made it. He was exactly 5 minutes late so they let him count his class time....thank heavens! When he picked him up I was on the phone and when he brought him back I was on the phone again. He could see me through the kitchen window from the driveway. I thought he would come in when they got back and I was going to ask him if he wanted to take our son for the evening on Saturday since I have plans (yes, I really do! Going to a country music club north of the ATL for their 5th anniversay bash.) I ended up texting that to him since he didn't come in. He responded that he saw I was on the phone and he didn't want to bother me. I told him he's not ever a bother and that I was just talking to my friend C. He said Saturday would be fine and we have been having a text conversation ever since (about 2 hours so far). Instead of asking me point blank where I was going he asked me:

H - "Where's the party Saturday night?"
M - "Wherever I am, don't you know."
H - "Wherever it is I hope you have fun."
M - "A friend asked me to go to this shin dig up in Kennesaw and it sounds like fun."
H - "That's quite a drive. Hot date huh?"
M - "I don't date. I'm not available. The drive shouldn't be too bad. It's an event at Wild Bill's"
H - "That sounds fun. I've heard it's a big place. U gonna line dance? LOL"
M - "I just might. Who knows....anything goes!!"
H - "Anything goes huh? U R a wild woman!!"
M - "Trying to get my groove on! I've been to afraid to do that for much too long. No more! You only live once."
H - "Hoping to get lucky huh?"
M - "You know that's not me. And again, I'm not available. Hoping to have some fun."

That's it for now. He's fishing an awful lot isn't he? I don't want him thinking I'm out trolling for men. Why would he ever think that? He knows me. He knows how shy I am anyway and he knows my morals. Even if we were divorced I wouldn't do anything like that. I just want to go dance, listen to some music and have a few drinks with friends. It should be great.

Is he trying to project his lack of morals onto me in order to make himself feel better about his choices?

(((((hugs to you all))))))