Trusting, Yeah, I agree that he is still in this crisis. He says he knows he needs to rebuild my trust - but then the actions to do so are getting more & more less frequent.
I kindof feel like my H just wants someone to have sex with while he is out living his bachelor/free lifestyle. He is still at the bars almost everyday. The thing is that now it is for less amount of time since he is slowly finding other things to do.
He did give me his passport the other day so I could book our bahamas trip for over our anniversary in August. So that is good.
I am still doing ALL of my GAL activities. If he doesnt want to see me or is busy, then I go do my own thing. I dont want to detatch completely becuase he is giving some efforts still. I just plain and simply dont know how to pull him away from the bars and all his new young immature friends.
H now has his new friends from his band working with him on roofs, so I have a feeling they will see his true colors eventually as all his other roofing crew's have seen & then usually quit or get fired.
This is just really hard to feel like we are just dating when we are supposed to be happily married. My own insecurities are driving me nuts.
H did end up coming over on sunday and after he maulled me, we had a good day (dinner & movies). I did talk briefly about the bad weekend we had and he didnt seem to want to get into it. But he gave me reasons to think things are o.k.
Then I went and saw him play with his band on Monday & when they were done he didnt want me to go, but I did.
Then last night, I went bowling and text him my scores at the end as he asked and he seemed to not want to talk, and was very brief. He said he would find time to call me tomorow. I still dont know what he was doing last night. Then at 1:36 a.m. he text me that he loves me & he was sorry it was too late. I said good night. And he responded "Good night Angel". He was nice becuase he knew he was messing up.
Now tonight, I will not call him, and we will see if he calls me. TIPPER
