Thank you Sara, I could use a hug right now. I think I'm just going to focus on breathing right now. That D@MN elephant has taken up resisdence on my chest once again. I thought it left a few days ago. Tomorrow is a new day and maybe I can make it just a tiny bit better. I know this is not about me - even though he claims it is. It is about his lack of self worth. He keeps telling me he cant trust me (hello - YOUR the one having an affair) and that is why he left becasue I made him go into a depression. Glad to know that I have that kind of control of people. So, if I could control him so d@mn much, why is it that I am not controlling hm right back here?!!??!!
Even though I want the alien to dissapear and have my loving H back, I have been going through this for 2 years now. I just dont see him coming home. I need to just find some way to let him go. That's such a hard answer to find. To move on when you dont want to.
I have an appointment w a L to start LS on Monday. Dont know what else to do.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
