Hey blindsided....instead of hoping/praying to be strong.....just be thankful for the strength you already have. It is there and you need to recognize it and give yourself more credit for it. Don't worry that will go away...build on it!! I felt at times like I was almost afraid to give in and get stronger because it meant being closer to total acceptance. But strength comes in that. When I see you accepting things, that's when I see you at your strongest.
I love it when you said H was an afterthought! Trust me you'll have a lot less time to think about him when Kendall arrives.
I'm glad you have your date booked. I think it helped me that I knew the date S was coming because it gave me something concrete in the midst of so much craziness. Hope you're feeling well! J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out