Thanks NM. Also please note my question #5...do you ever have sexual dreams and (in general) what are they about? These are clues into your psyche.
I have to leave for the day but I will mull over your situation and come back tomorrow with more ideas and comments for you.
I'm really afraid of you saying that your H said he'd rather not try this ever again! That is alarming! No wonder you went into a panic attack!
But at the same time sweetie - you are really REALLY lucky to be trying to get this type of help before you end up divorced. KUDOS to you for TRYING. OK? You need to pat yourself on the back for that one at least. Try to forget the part of yourself that feels ashamed and tries to ignore the problem. That part of yourself is NOT your friend! The part of yourself that IS your friend is ALSO the part of you that wants to have sex! And if I may be blunt, the reason you found yourself getting aroused last night after talking about things, is that your body is TRYING to tell you that it really does know what to do. It is your mind that is getting in your way.
This will not be a short journey but I feel confident you will one day look back and wonder why you didn't get help sooner...ie: you will be successful at this journey!
Hang in there and I will be back tomorrow...I am sure others might chime in too, but you have picked a section of this board that does not get a lot of traffic. So don't be surprised if you don't get many responses...
