Oh, noo. I truly love my H, but he doesn't see that. I so much want "us" to work together, in harmony like we once did, but that means he has to rebuild his priorities... ie, marriage first, then children, then career... something he doesn't get yet. It also means that I have needs too, but he doesn't want to recognize those. I want to be heard. But if I dare talk about how I feel, he criticizes me, rather than supporting me, or even something as simple as a hug. I feel like I am always being judged.
What I'm afraid of is we have nothing to keep us connected. There are no children between us. So, while I sit here, he's just going to go on his merry little way, in this cloud of bitterness, resentment, denial and pass it on like it was me all along, and 'live for his kids', turn himself into a martyr.
