Jeff, thanks for the shoutout. I know how you feel. This type of separation "sickness" that you describe in your smiley faces isn't a short term problem. It's more like a chronic illness that I guess you get used to over time. But for me its been 6 months and I am honestly really still hurting. I know exactly the emotions you are going through. I haven't had a peaceful night of sleep in over 8 months now. I know I can't go on feeling like this forever. I just hope it gets better.
But at the same time, there is some peace for me in doing the right thing. I know I made mistakes in my marriage. You said you did too. But we didnt cheat. And we aren't blaming our failing on others. We also aren't the ones out there living counter to our marriage. We are standers...It is tough but we are at least trying to do the right thing. We are fighting the good fight. I just hope that in our case it pays off. Jeff, I like you don't really know if ever having my wife back is the right thing. I really miss the love and affection. But i don't miss it from just anyone, I miss it from her. Yet at the same time, I don't miss the monster she became. I miss the women who was a woman of Christ. My hope comes from knowing that deep inside of her is still that light of His flickering.
Anyways, I'm rambling...but I stand with you Jeff. Keep going.
